Friday, May 27, 2022

Open Letter to Alexandra Grant


Dear Alexandra Grant,

While I was searching for the original photo I made this head sticker from, I had the opportunity to thoroughly browse your entire IG page. It was interesting to see your evolution. 

You started out pictured mostly with friends and family. (What happened to Florence?) Getty'Images shows us events you hosted. it was clear it was mostly you holding your own, an independent woman, working towards a goal.


While I may not respect your personal goals, I can appreciate the effort it takes to organize something like that successfully. I'm not a materialistic person nor do I wish for the world to look at me with admiration. Being handed an expensive purse as a gift at a dinner event would mean nothing to me. Imagine all the good that could have been done for those who have nothing with the money paid for each of those purses? That's where my head goes.

You want to swim in a small pool of privilege and excess. It would seem that all the "philanthropy" you do, which you photograph, gets cancelled out by your greed and desire for the finer things. You have no idea what it means to struggle and wonder where your next meal will come from. Art is lovely, but it's not a necessity. There is so much more you could do to help if that was really your goal.

Instead, you have chosen to use a famous man to help you get a leg up and get your name out there, but the problem is, what has happened is your whole identity now depends upon him. People now only invite you because they want him and if they don't get him, it is a disappointment. 

The symbolism of your collaborations with Keanu tells the story. You've become his shadow (book of shadows) and your ode to happiness is a joke and contradiction. What is on the cover doesn't reflect the true content. It was just a vehicle to get what you really wanted. 



The Artist's Prison put the artist in prison because you had Keanu signing Eve Wood's book. 

But in the end, you became that artist in prison because now you are not the renowned "Alexandra Grant" you wanted to be,. You're now reduced to being " Keanu's girlfriend".

What will happen to you when you are no longer Keanu's girlfriend?  Who will you be? No one.

Monday, February 28, 2022

Ego, Red Pill, Blue Pill


The Ego gets such a bad rap.

Ego is literally simply identity. It is everything that makes up who we think we are as a person. 

I identify with being a poet and writer because I do those things. That is ego.

I am not one of those who thinks it needs to be obliterated into nothingness. The Ego has a purpose which is the roles we play while in the physical. Those identities can shift and change should we choose.

I think the key to everything is BALANCE. 

You can have the knowledge and understanding that you are not the role you are playing and still have a full experience IN your current role on stage. An actor doesn't usually believe they are the character they are playing.

It is when we forget this is all a giant stage and we are playing roles that it can become a problem. Of course I know we are all one, blah fucking blah. I also know time doesn't exist and yet all spiritual people use that handy dandy fiction to keep appointments either with clients, naturopaths, schools, etc. You still play the time game because we have collectively agreed to play it. 

Likewise, it isn't about saying "fuck this shit, I am GOD/LOVE and I ain't playing the role of me anymore!" If I did that here in this physical experience, not a lot would happen. 

Our goal is to wake up to the fact that we aren't these roles we are playing so that we can shift our ego into a new way of being. Ego cracks and thus expands our consciousness. We shift out of working to survive and into self discovery.

Who am I when I don't have to work to survive? What do I love? Who do I want to become? 

When we go to the inside world and examine honestly who we have been and who we want to be, then the ego we have been wearing can shift and expand as well.

When we can do that collectively, we then level up and go on to the next stage of the humanity game. We can then shift out of survival mode and into free play mode where everything is less dangerous and we can simply enjoy the experiences we are having. 

We have been stuck here for a while playing the survival mode levels over and over. During the course of playing the level over, we forgot we aren't the roles we are playing. There is a bigger, higher perspective of what is happening which we need to see from.

Again I say, it is about knowledge and balance...not obliterating the role you have come to play. We still came for the EXPERIENCE, so why not allow and experience while retaining the knowledge of what we really are?


What if God was one of us?

Just a slob like one of us?

Just a stranger on the bus

Trying to make His way home?

Lyrics written by Eric M. Bazilian
Performed by Joan Osborne

What if God was Keanu Reeves split apart into two polar aspects who are known as the "sons of God" and one wears a red hat and the other a blue one?

What if Red Keanu hated his brother, Blue Keanu and told the world, "I am the only begotten son of God." Blue was like, "Fuck that shit, I'll kick your ass" and he killed his brother and told the world that he was actually the only begotten son of God.

But what if, like Mr. Smith in The Matrix, he could actually bring those two aspects of God back together as...well...God? Imagine what they could do together as one being. 

The battle is within, but it still exists. When we come into true balance...into purple, we have the potential to become who we truly are, but have forgotten.

Repost (originally posted September 27, 2018)


You are being offered a red or a blue pill. Which do you take?

My answer is always, BOTH. One without the other is imbalance.

Red and blue are simply perspectives and neither is inherently wrong or correct.

The Matrix movie is incomplete.

The truth can only be found when you take both, mash them together to make purple. The truth is found in the center where the two meet and blend. Purple is the color of the crown chakra, the higher mind. 

There is no "us against them". There is only "us" but your belief in the contrary creates chaos and imbalance. It creates war and the false belief there are sides that need to be taken.

Everything that is outside of us first starts within us.

Change yourself to change the world.

Repost (Originally posted September 27, 2018)

Red and blue pills are symbolism, to me. It is the contrast between left and right. Here in the US the two major political parties use those colors to represent themselves, democrats being blue and republicans being red. Neither party is fully wrong or fully right but they battle each other endlessly wanting to be the controlling party. 

Control is a funny thing. It is the reason for a lot of wars...both internally and externally. Jung didn't have all of the answers, only the answers that were right for him in his explorations of self.

We all should want to be explorers of ourselves so that we can master the inner world before we navigate the outer. Jung was still part of the outer world just as all of us are having this collective experience. He still had to navigate the so called "dream", but he used his inner knowledge as a compass and guide for doing that.

To those living in and invested in the so called lie of the virtual world in The Matrix movies, it wasn't a lie, it was simply a way of being and a way of having experiences. What if in the "truth" reality, Neo woke up to find he was a paraplegic, but had full mobility all that time within the so called "lie". What if it isn't so much about lies and truth as it is about what we choose to experience? 

What if peace could be established between the two realities where people could come and go from the virtual world as they wished? The problem comes in when CONTROL tries to be implemented for everyone. Instead of allowing people the choice... which, from what people have said about the new Matrix Resurrections movie, choice was eliminated from the equation, which I think is inherently wrong.

When we battle endlessly within and there is constant conflict, it manifests in the form of illness and autoimmune disorders where the body's own defense system is now attacking itself.

This is also a piece I wrote explaining the red and blue conundrum but didn't choose to repost it on the Bleubunny platform:

You are being offered a red or a blue pill. Which do you take?

The human vascular system is often illustrated as red and blue. Red is taking oxygen to the body and blue bringing it back to be replenished. 

It is a circulatory system.

Get it?

A circuit needs connection to be circular. A broken circuit means there is no flow, no communication.

If red and blue don't meet within the body, it means death. Think about that symbolism and what it means to us when we choose red or blue and lack connection.

We are working to connect our internal red and blue, heart and mind, give and take, masculine and feminine so that we can balance and find our center and restore the energetic flow. 


When we achieve this internally, we need to reach out and make connections externally to restore the circuit and flow. Staying isolated will never do to restore balance to this reality. 

Go within to find your center but come back out so that you can connect with others.

Everything that is outside of us first starts within us.

Change yourself to change the world.

Monday, January 17, 2022

Keanu Reeves is NOT Your Twin Flame

 
News Flash!

There is no "The One" outside of self that will complete you. Completion is an inside job. There is no single person you are destined for and it sure as hell isn't Keanu Reeves. 

The sooner you realize that, the sooner you can end your delusions and find your "happily every after" from within.

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I posted the above on Instagram, but wanted to address a few responses at length here.

Comment: Thank you for saying this. People need to own the stuff both good and bad they project onto others. These qualities are part of our unconscious Shadows. It's these unconscious processes that make movie stars, celebs, etc. seem so much larger than life and 'special'. Whatever wonderful qualities people attribute to K are the ones they're afraid to own. We are equally afraid of our potential for greatness as we are afraid of our dark thoughts and feelings.

Thank you to the individual who posted this comment on IG. It is perfect and absolutely true.

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The below is from a chatango channel that was opened by Clown after Ugossip original was shut down and is referred to as "Ugossip back up":

clown: We shouldn't be surprised Keanu is a horrible human being.

timmy: @red this is a good one, good point https://www.instagram.com/badbleubunny/p/CYXC XSGPBOr/?utm_medium=copy_link

clown: Aside from covering up crimes, I guess his pr builds him up so much because he has nothing real about himself or his craft that speak for themselves.

timmy: There are no twin flames etc... it's just people you get along with and understand each other
timmy: Tolerate each other's habits etc
timmy: and the big one, Respect each other

clown: Respect is earned. And it's not real if it's earned through fake PR.
clown: You can't respect a liar, a cheater, a poser.

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This is my response to "Timmy" that ended up much too long, so it needed to be it's own blog post:

@timmy: `There are no twin flames etc… it’s just people you get along with and understand each other` 

There are twin flames, just not in the way that people think of them. Like I illustrated in the meme, it is an internal thing. A flame is something we light and to light a twin flame internally means you are bringing two parallel circuits online within the human body to create a circular energy flow. 

Think in terms of the Kundalini and how the awakening Kundalini is depicted as two different colored snakes traveling back and forth up the spine. Left and right, masculine and feminine, sweet and sour, naughty and nice, hard and soft, shadow and light need to be brought together to co-exist simultaneously within the human vessel as a single balanced thing. 

It's not about choosing one or the other, but giving ourselves permission to be both at the same time.

When we get to know that inner masculine or feminine who we have been denying for far too long, we ignite an internal flame that had once been put out due to whatever shit we experienced in life that put it out. For most of us, it is the masculine side that we have lost touch with. The masculine side isn't what most people think, either. Right, in symbolism is considered masculine, and left is considered feminine. But what isn't ever taken into consideration is that there is a twist. Masculine right brain which is our creative self, rules the left part of the body. Analytical feminine left brain rules the right side of the body.

For many of us, we work to survive, stay in relationships that are dysfunctional and lacking in many ways and we lose parts of ourselves along the way. We forget how to creatively express ourselves, to nurture and support ourselves. We forget how to love ourselves because we have been taught over and over how to hate ourselves through adopted false beliefs.

I prefer to call the twin flame journey "the journey back to self" because it is ALL about recovering the parts of us we lost along the way, gaining new parts, and getting to know ourselves, masculine and feminine, in a very important and meaningful way.

Anyone who has embarked on that journey and come out the other side understands what an important journey it is.

Every person we meet along the way can help us learn about ourselves if we allow it...good and bad. Those people who trigger us are teaching us if we pay attention and look closely at what needs to be healed.

This is where I have to admit what a pivotal role @clown has played in my own "twin flame" journey... although it would be more accurate to say I have quad flames internally. I have four distinctive parts.

If I'm really honest, I had a love/hate relationship with clown at the beginning. She knows this. I didn't understand her point of view at all in the beginning or really anything about the place (ugossip 1.0) I had stumbled into. I made every mistake in the book. I tried to walk away from UG what feels like a thousand times, but I always ended up boomeranging back. There was a magnetic pull.

Clown had a magnetic pull for me. I went back because of her.

There was a learning curve and all of that time I invested in playing and fighting here/there, someone was forming inside of me. I emulated aspects of clown and those parts eventually rose up to become BadBleuBunny He is a part of me I didn't know existed and didn't know I needed...but I do. He adds balance to my life and a different perspective. He is sometimes crass, has a wicked sense of humor, has a strong sense of justice and isn't afraid to speak out. Sometimes he is an asshole and I love and respect everything he brings to the table.

I will probably never meet clown and she will remain a faceless person on the internet, but she has changed my life for the better because she connected me to a hidden part of myself and ignited one of my internal flames. For that I will be forever grateful.

So, it doesn't require romantic relationships to complete us and set us on fire.

It simply requires a desire to know ourselves. It requires us being open to change and absorbing the lessons from all of the learning experiences around us that help us get to know ourselves, especially the hidden parts we never knew were there.

Now for the subject of relationships...

I firmly believe there isn't "the one". I don't believe we are fated for one specific person. I believe that we get to choose who we want to be with. If two healed people who have all of their inner flames ignited choose each other, the odds of success are very good. But I think we have to acknowledge that, perhaps, there doesn't have to be a forever person because those of us who have grown and changed also know that growing and changing is a continuous process. Sometimes people who were well suited for each other in the beginning, grow in different directions and need different experiences apart from each other to keep growing. There should never be any shame in that.

All relationships require work to maintain, but some relationships reach an expiration date, therefore, they need to be let go of for the benefit of both people involved. I used to be guilty of holding onto relationships of all shapes and sizes long after the expiration date. Letting people go has been a lesson that kept repeating for me until I could comfortably stand on my own and love my own company.

As Kenny Rogers used to sing:

You've got to know when to hold 'em
Know when to fold 'em
Know when to walk away
And know when to run

Romantic love is fleeting, at best, but the relationship with yourself is the only one that needs to last a lifetime. A relationship with self leads to confidence, security, independence, inner balance and peace, whereas the opposite is true when you base your happiness on another person. You risk having your inner world fall apart over and over when it is dependent on another person.

Keanu Reeves is NOT your twin flame...he can only he his own.

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